Hi John just a wee messaage to say hi and we r all thinkin of u !! love kim karl mags and steven and all ur grandkids kelly , rhiannon , kyle , zakie, rian , lauren and the new arrival abi xxxx

hello john its been a while since i have been on ur page its come ng up to ur first anniversary it has been a tough year for me with out u i love and miss u with all my heart till the day i meet u again ..i am have ng a thing in the boat in ur memerory with ur friend s i am nervouse have ng to stand up in front of the all i am not look ng forward to that ...karls work ng but steven scome ng up with kimmie i hope they be have them selfs ...then on monday i think i w ill just stay in on monday well shower s nt work ng just cant wine well john we wone on the irsh lottery thanks to u .... talk to u soon xxxxx

hi john its been a while and i am sorry for that .. u will know wat i meen i love and miss u every day ..but i am so lonley i cant tell just incase some /1 may read this .. its ur birthday to/morro i have gt balloons and a candle and a card but its nt brthday card its one i will tell its b/wishes its says silent tears i cry today try ng to pretend that every thing s okay . its ur birthday today and there noth ng i can do and noth ng i can say..no presents to surprise you. just memories of past gifts and birthdays the years through. i wish you where still here.but here sa card for you left with loving tears .remembering you with love happy birthday darling mags is get ng bigger she due on the 7/march steven is work ng now bout time they all have mived into new hzes all the grand children r fine zakie is a wee bit better i think i am work ng very hard missy is good she is company for me as u know nobody ever visit me shaz s is much the sane drink ng to much liam s back in the jail best place for him its going to b tuff for me ta/morro john i am listen ng to the radio guess wat came be ma baby i think that was u pope ng in bless u talk to u to nte at mid nite love u always helen

hi john well its hogmany this year is nearly out ...cant wait for it its been a terrible year lose ng u was the hard est part off it i miss u so much ..i was going ta go ta bed but kal/kim have ask d me dwn they dont want me to spend it on my own ... u have good 1/up ther darl ng i know u will b party ng i know it will not b the same with out u nothing will ever b the same now ur gone will toast u at mid nite xxxhelen

merry xmas john ..i bet u all had agreat day ..they all came to me for dinner we all had a good time . but sme/1 took 60/pounds out ur walllet i bet u know who took it it was all i had i was so angry .... that did up/set me but wat goes around cmes around i hope thhey enjoy the csh i hope they chock on it that spoil d it for me and kim...talk ta u later ...

hiya john hope ur ell darling well let me tell all wats been happen ng with us all .. its a week ta/day and it will xmas day not look ng forward toit .. just wish it was over ... its the first 1/with out u ..it will not b the same ... i wa sgoing dwn tokarl/kim and steven/mags and bairns where going as well ..but its changed there all cme ng to me ...i think thats better .. i hope u like the tree done itall ma /self ...well kyle was 6/ wed last week then steven was friday ....all the wee/1 r get ng excited ....rian/zak r in the nativity play rians /josef/zaks do not laugh he the donkey do u rember wen steven was in 1 years ago now ...i miss u so much but i am try ng very hard not ta show it infront of the wee/1 welll john i am going talk to u ta/morro nite nite xxxx

hiya john hope u r well... well let me fill u in wat s been happen ng .. i put ma xmas tree up ta/day black and red .... it i think it looks good ... kyle stay ng over he says its koolhe help d me or try d ... he has been good for me he is on his own ... shazs is bro gets cremated on monday .. she in a terrible state ... lately she s been very nasty to/wards me but u i hope will know this .... i am not happy with her she really hurt me say ng i was not a good friend ta /her .. thats not true u know that .... i did tell her in a round bout way .. i am not put ng up with it any longer ... her sis vee is not like that she said to me not that we where talk ng bout her though .. she says she should not b like that and she is drink ng far to/ much .. i feel like tell her to piss off... but i am not like that ..as u know .. the boys r not happy with her but i have to b the 1/who tell shazs if she keep s treat ng me like shit... i love u and miss u so much .. i have been grieve ng for nearlly 7/ months and u do not c me b ng nasty to any /body ... karls has not been well he get ng better now.. steven s fine same old him with big chip on his shoulders ...all the wee /1 r have all been not well .....i am going ta/put the rest of the dec s up to / morro only put ng them up for them the kids... i wish it was all over ... it will not b the same with out/u ... but i have to try ..... i am just get ng on with thing s its been hard but i just keep bizzy .. i am still work ng so hard ..mags is get ng bigger every/ time i c her she just keeps eat ng lets hope all is well ...kim s been really nice to me i think they all relize how much i miss u ... they r all look ng sfter me ...talk to real soon xxx

hi john well its asad day for shazs/and her family her brother john died last nite .. i feel so sorry for them all ... coz i am still greive ng after u going ..but off late shazs has been very nasty to me .. i would not hurt her the way she has done to me.. i was talk ng to my sis on thursday as i was in a terrible state coz of wat shazs said in her txts ...and i said to my sis wat goes around come around .. now i feel guilty for day ng that ...by the way my sis has been great to me .. i love u and miss u so much bt john i blame d my self for ugoing but it was kim yes kim... she explain d things to me now i know it just was ur time i felt better for the firt time in 7/month s but thats all the part of greive ng ... john u can rest in peace noe know ng i will b all rite ... i have gt surport from the boy s and the girls kim as u know as got atoung on her but she talk s a lot off sence ... i felt i was a burden but i am not i am make ng dinner up for shazs and vee she is drink ng but i will just leave iff she starts on me darling had rian for the after noon on sat .... going dwn to kim/karl on xmas day mags/steven and the kids r going dwn to it will nt b the same without u but i will put abrave face on fot the grand children .... i am away for now xxxxh

hi john i will cme bck on to /morro i did rite u a long letter so i want to check it went onto the thoughts if now i willre rite it again darling xxxxh

hello john its been a very tuff week for me ... shazs has been nasty again so wats new there wen she is on the drink ... she will appoligies to me but john ihave change now no/1 is goint to trat me like a door mat no more .... john i have to tell u sme thing ... its been eat ng me up for nearlly 7/months wen u went up to heaven i felt so guilty i blamed my self for u going as i was on my lap/top ply ng my bubblu know i es and u said u would have five min s to catch ur breath ... but u did nt want me to get in a panic but u went happy with a smile on ur face and u want d u to rember me dace ng ... not shear panic in my face i know id did not let u die so john u can now rest in peace u know i will b fine now ... now inside i feel love not hate any more

hi john iam in the houze and i am listen ng tothe scottish music on the radio ..... i am think ng off u of courze ...took shazs dinner round and came bck she is on the wine so b/fore she get s nippy i thought i am off .... well just going to have a j then get settled dwn for the nite i have turn d the buzzer off and i have no land /line now thanks to that lot ..its better for me just could not make the bill as all ma csh sky was taken ... i was angry at first but now if any /body needs to gt in touch they can phone my mobile .. i have txt/ both/ norma /and der but they dont txt bck or phone now / never mind i am not bother d anymore ..... just me/and missie .... by love and miss u xxxxh

hiya johnhope ur allrite ....welli had zakie boy last nite and he was verygood forme ...no wetbedthank god for that... uknow he get toldoff for that.... but he is nearlly five .... we where talk ng bout uhe does misss u so much like myself ... work ng very hard nows love wrk ng in the pub as i feel soclose ta u..... we have all had a bug .....kim s has it now she is really not well....did u have aparty for baby/john on his birthday shazs is brother ithink will b up there soon justwith thing s he has beendoing ...well john miss u so much ....shazs is on the wine we allbetter watch out u wats she is like ... her oven is not workng so i am cook ng ... i am away for now ....

hi john its so cold out the day.. i am not happy with shazs she has been drrink ng again and the tung start d being nasty to wards me ...her friend turn d round and said that sharon fed up with me that hurt and upset me ... well i say if she has smw thing to say .... she should do it wen sobber ... shazs did a good job in the sitt ng room the color great red/ccream u would love it darling ... sorry been so bizzy ...not been on for a while john i am just try ng to get on with things ... but it is so hard for me .... i love and miss u every miniute of each day .... ur always in my thought and in my heart .... its been 6 months sinced u had to go ... i was just sitt ng on the bed wen it it sunk in u will never b cme ng back again ...and i will c u till its my time to cme up there.....xmas is 5/week on sunday and i can tell u darl ng i am nt look ng forward to it ....i did think off not put ng a tree up but that is wrong ... i have to make the effort for the grand children ... u did so iam know differnt from u .... karl/kim fell out last week yes had him bck for 1/nite it was all over a puppy ... i wonder how long they will have this 1.. he is a cutie thou ....well its baby john 3/rd birthdat to/ morro but u will know this hope u r have ng a party for him... i will light a candle for him ...b/john will not b lonley now that he has his grand/dad up there look ng after him.... mag s is moan ng again i thought i would buy them a presssie ...but i got it wrong again cnt do any thing rite oh well ....zakie s cme ng to stay on saturday just him great just us 2... yeah ... i had 2/ number s on the health lottery but john i need 1/or 2/or them all love i will not b gready bab s i keep my fingers cross d well love i am awy talk to u soon on line love u so so much xxxxx

hi john its been a bad day for me .... i just relized that u will never come back to me i misss u so much it hurt s so much .. well the live ng room been decorated i hope u like the colour s red/cream its lovely shazs had done agood job .... mags is fine she get ng big ...all the grand bairns r all well... i get zakie in 2/weeks i take 1 wee one every 2 /weeks ... i bet u will bhave ng a wee party for baby john he will be 2/3 i cnt remember ... i do a health lottery now with all ur number of this year and ur birthday number 5has came out three weks in arow .. just need the rest for a win but i am hope full ... xmas is loom ng but i nt look ng forward to it ....as ur not here ... but i am going to make the effort for the wee ones just like u did ... going to kim/karls on xmas day ... and steven and mags and there bairn s r cme ng dwn as well they said i have not to b on my own ... well darl ng i am away talk to u to/morro xxxxxx

hi john its been a bad day for me .... i just relized that u will never come back to me i misss u so much it hurt s so much .. well the live ng room been decorated i hope u like the colour s red/cream its lovely shazs had done agood job .... mags is fine she get ng big ...all the grand bairns r all well... i get zakie in 2/weeks i take 1 wee one every 2 /weeks ... i bet u will bhave ng a wee party for baby john he will be 2/3 i cnt remember ... i do a health lottery now with all ur number of this year and ur birthday number 5has came out three weks in arow .. just need the rest for a win but i am hope full ... xmas is loom ng but i nt look ng forward to it ....as ur not here ... but i am going to make the effort for the wee ones just like u did ... going to kim/karls on xmas day ... and steven and mags and there bairn s r cme ng dwn as well they said i have not to b on my own ... well darl ng i am away talk to u to/morro xxxxxx

hello john hope ur well ... i have nt been on for bout a week been so bizzy bck and forward to work ... but that does nt meen i am for/get ng bout u ... i got my self into a state to/day wen mags was in ... i lve and misss u so much but u will know this .. any way i have got lots off news for u ... mags and steven r have ng a girl and every thing is well no spina biffda i have got the scN PICS ON the fridge there call ng abi maris /helen gibson she due on laurens birthday ..she is a gft from u .. abi will bring ur love to me and she will help the pain i have with u going away .... i am start ng the paint ng the the live ng room ta/morro well shazs is i hope u like the couler s red on the fire wall and the rest cream wat do u think ... karl was bck for the afternoon with all his cloths again but he his bck dwn the road he would be better leave ng his stuff here its here more than dwn the road ....zakie i feel for him he looks so sad but he is young and he will ajust as he gets older and understand better why u had to go ....kyle now want to stay with me he his always say ng to his mum/dad wen can igo to c granny .. wen he would not stay here so iam pleazed bout that all the wee ones r fine the boys r fine /girls ally cme up tro /morro with dust sheets i told mags to wind him up he says why does he want to have a cuppa with me karl thinks other idear s like him want ng to jump on my bone s katl like ally he just does not wnt him any way near me but that will go for any man where i am concernd ... i dont want any other man ur my man till i go .... then i will b with u 1/day darling shazs brother john is not got long to go i think it will b real soon its terminal ...... talk to u later love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hi john its freez ng out ta/day darling .. i am going to davids and libby s for dinner i was going to call it of but i thought i should go.. well i am work nf very hard ..had to sort the scott and co for ma coincil tax ma self .. i am just gt ng by keep ng the roof over ma heads that wat u always said i miss u so much its been 5/ months now since u went away why did u have to go love .. u said its was ur time but there is so much that we did not say 2/each other i know u were inso much pain but i did try so hard to help u and i wish i could have took some off ur pain ... the boy s are fine we talk bout u all the time i wa so up set last week please stay came on the radio and that was it i just could not stop cry ng i meet steven and i told him how much i miss u i will always love and miss u ...how r u r u have ng a few pints with my dad .. have u meet baby john i wondre wat he would look like u i bet ...kyle stay d with me oh i already told u that ....liam back on the kit wat a waste off space .. shazs has chuck him out well love i better get ready for ma work hugg sand kisses xxxx

hi john its been a few days how r u chrisdburg was play ng miss ng u never true word was sung i miss u so much i lve u so much there not a min of each day i dont think off u ..i am going tovdavid and libby s for dinner tuesday nite for my dinner that will b nice... libby is gt ng big now ... ian s been in the hospital he has beeen told to stop drink ng for 2/ month s or he will die he look s terrible .. i woder if he will listen .. time will tell ... mags is fine she will find out wat the baby is boy/girl i thinks its a boy.. i do hope so there call ng him ronald after u bt u will know this ...zakie boy nt doing so good he is miss ng u so much ... but he tells me u talk to him at nite... i do beleive u do sit on his bed ... 1 day he will come to term s with lose ng u me as welll ....missy miss ng u steven has nt got a job yet but things with them r ok... i think ... me i am try ng hard but u left me and its hard for me has i am still angry with ugoing wen u did ..... rian and kyle stay d last nite kyle was very good and rian u know him ..i was taken them dwn the road and he said granny ur nt going up to the clouds r u i said no not for along time the moon was fall ng us i said to them that was u they seem d to b pleaze with that ... 1 day i will under stand why u had to go love u till the day i go misss u so sos much darling xxxxx

hiya john hope ur fine nt been on for a wee while i have got lots to tell u where do i start .. liam is back on the kit ...he said he was going to stay clean he had a great oppertunity .. shazs is have ng a very hard time with him .. he s treat ng bad .. he od we had to call out the parqmedics out for him the other nite .. he will b bck inside by xmas i bet u he steal ngto feed his habbit well i wash ma hands off him .. but u will know this ... mags and steven r fine .. kim and karl r doing well at the minuite ... me i am all rite just keep ng ma self bizzy ... i miss u so much i wish u where here darl ng its so cold out and its rain ng its winter now missy is fine i am get ng all her nots out she is a great comfurt to me now i am on my own xxxxxxxh

hi john i am so up set liams home and ur nt here to c him but iknow ur his garch ng angel ... shazs put real radio and ur song came on dont stop believe ng came on ... i just could not stop cry ng miss u so much my heart sbrocken xxxxxx

hello john i am so up set ... liam s home u will know this ...sadly ur not here to c him but he is look ng good its strange shazs put the radio on and dont stop believe ng came on ur song thats so strange i knmow ur r liams gard ng angel now love u so much miss u my heart s brocken xxxxx

morn ng john hope ur fine to/day.. i am not feel ng really lost with out u ... u will know i am work ng all the time ... i have gt most off the paint now .... i had lauren on saturday for a few hours and kelly ..... i took them round ta shazs.... well liam gets home to/ morro hope fully he will have change d off the smack so i will keep my fingers cross d that he will b a chang d person ... shazs say s she will have to lock things away to start with dont blame her really .... miss u so much .. john know 1 will come to the houzze shazs has nt been in the houze since the day off ur funeral that cme ng up for 5/month its like know 1 cares bout me .... only c steven wen he wants cash .... and karl wen he/s fell out with kim ... so i just sit hear with missie ..... will cme bck on line ta/nite to talk .. love u so much xxxxx

hi john its so cold out to day ... hope r fine and u will b up ther where its so peace full and warm.. how u would like it ... i misss u so much darling xxxxhelen

hi john how r u darling .. nt been on for a few days been so bizzy work ng hard ... i lite a candle for norrie yestderday and its dad s to day so i will light a candle for ma dad the nightn.. i went ta chris 30 th party at the week end i had anice time but i wish u could have been there so i had a good cry on the sunday ... i went sobber and came bck the same way u would have been so proud offf me john... i think bout u every minuite off every day i love and miss u so much darling ... talk to u later helen xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hiya john its been a few days since i have been on lots off things have happen d but u will know this darling ... i am gett ng on all rite at the pub gett ng into a routine now its een so hard try ng to pick up the pieces .. kym sorted thing s out with sky she phoned them be cauze the bill wher get ng so high they where all use ng the phone ... mobile and all those 0845 numbers now there barred my bills will be bck ta normal now ... i am going ta chris 30 th birthday party at the hearts ground on saturday it will b the 2 time i have been out and ur not with me its hard for me i love and miss u so much we had arite carry on me and shazs sincw friday george done some cd s off all the old music ...its all the stuff u and i know it was nice i know u where there love .....karl brought his cloths up again do know whats going on there watch this space they have been so happy .... margret s got a scan this week i hope every thing goes well ..she told me if its aboy she will b call ng him ronarld ur middle name i said u would like that ... going just now talk ta u later the nite misss misss u always xxxx

hiya john things have been bad this week .. i have cried a lot i miss u so much u know ur but the day off ur n funeral always on ma mind the hurt i feel with loss ng u ... i txt derek ask ng him for help but i wishi had not he got bck ta me and said no as he is keep ng 2 houses ....but the day of ur funeral he told me just get in touch if i need d help feel really stupid now will not ask again .... its u he cares bout not me ... the boy r now live ng with the girls let hope it last i like b ng on ma own .....i feel a bit better in my self john i know ur look ng out for me ihope ... i wish u where here with me i miss u just moan ng at me its funny u did say u miss it all when i am gone ur rite i do .... shazs has still not been up ta the houze never mind .... love u always xxx

hiya john how r u darling ..u r never out my mind i love and miss u so so much that it hurt s ... let me tell u all wat has been going on ... well i now work in the boat clean ng i got the job .. i need the cash has my finances r teribble but u will know this... i thank u for this u got me this job i know this also .. zakie boy is miss ng u so much .. kim went ta read ng and said u came into it .. she also told me that u sit on zaks bed at nite and talk to him i do beleive u do .. he is hitt ng him self .. or if i tell himm off he think that me or any body for that we dont love him .. and he gets him self up set .. but i just give him a big cuddle and tell him that of courze i love him ... we talk bout u all the time ... and zakie boy cheers up then ... karl and kim r get ng on better and so r mags and steven also r gett ng on better to thank god but how long will it last i do not know .....dusty was 89 yesterday and he is well... ally on the other hand is not doing to good .. he is gett ng help for the drink ng ... well darl ng i will talk to u to morro love u for ever nite nite xxxhelen

hiya john how r u darl ng ...its been 3 months now since u went and left me its been so tufff... i miss u so so much i felt i could not go on with out u .... i was talk ng to norma the other day she find ng it hard deal ng with ur losss ....she will not come to the houze ... shazs has not been up to the houze either .... i have good new my fried evoone ... has offer d me a job clean ng her flat anf 4 friend s of hers as well ... that will help ... i have not told any body but shazs she could help and i will split the money with her .... love u so much .. kimand karl r on the move again ... they have found a ground floor flat with a garden and a back door and garden at the back ..talk to u ta morro nit e nite xxxxxx

hi john i misss u so so much darling .... ma birthday was a sad day for me b cauze u r not here with me ... karl and kim r at it again .. kim has got karl where she want him .. i cant cope with it .... the boys say they will help me but thats not happen ng as u know ... they get more money than me ... i have not got a penny just bout out of power .. hardly any food .. not even got a biscuite nor choc ....then u have steven and mags have ng no food for the bairn s ..as it was ma fault ... karl bought me choc s no card s from his wee ones that is dwn to kim... any way she know how to hurt me she will ... she has been so so nasty to wards me ... i am on my own now in the houze and i am glad .... i am try ng so hard to come to term s with loss of u .. i have not stop cry ng for three month s i hope u know i will never take my wedding ring off .. i love u with all ma heart xxxxhelen

hiya john hope ur well i miss u so much .... i cant take much more ...... its ma birthday but iw will not b celerbrat ng it as ur not with me .... the day u went out off ma life the light went out ... ally and karl and me where in the boat ta nite ... ally is hitt ng the drink like he has nt eaten for 8 days ..... i did tell him he was stupid like ..... he is miss ng u he was cry ng ....john i dont know wat ta do like i have no money .... love u so much xxxxx

hiya john its friday nite now ? i have karl back i have only had 1 nite on ma own ..i need some time on my own .. shazs has had bad news her brother john as cancer but u know this its been abad year .... i miss u so much i have some real bads day s... i am not look ng for ward ta my birthday as ur not here with me .... i am just going ta work .. i wa sgoing ta stay off bujt with all that went on with all them but they have put me rite off i cant be bother d now ... it has been so hard try ng to get on with life wen u went my life end ed i cant cope xxxhelen

hiya john well a lot has happen d as u will know ? i have had a terrible time with them all ? steven and mags and the bairns r away and karl kim and the we 1 s r going home ta morro .. they all ahve to get on with there life they cnt stay with me i need peace to greave.... i am try ng very hard darling its ma birthday soon and ur nt there ta share it with me i love u so much and it realy hurt s ....xxxhelen

hiya john its sunday nite now i have been bizzy help ng shazs do her garden ng yes me ? had a shower wsh d ma hair had ma dinner ? now i am home i am nack d its been so hot out side i am keep ng ma self bizzy so i dont just sit cry ng love and miss u so much ? i am think ng of going to get a read ng and c if u come through darling xxxxxxxh

hello john mags and kim went to a reed ng 2 c if u and her mum came through / and u did mags say u did and u r fine but u did not want ta go but u knew it was ur time ?darling u did not mention me that upset me a lot i miss u so much and i love u i hope u know this ? imags got ume a key ring with ur pic on 1 side and us both on the other side when we went ta russel s first wedding ? ur at peace now shazs brother john is not well he has a tumor i think it is cancer shazs is in bad way now i will have to look after her talk ta u to morro mags is pregnant i hope every thing goes well for them both they move into ther new flat in 2 week s i am pleazed for them then i can start decorat ng the hoose and b on my own xxxxxx

hello john well its sunday nite again karls work ng will b home soon yes he is bck again ? mags is still here as well hope not for much longer ? ally is come ng up to morro he is going to decrate for me it is all need doing love and miss u so much karl s deicated a song to u i am going to put it on ur page u will like it darling love u nite nite xxxxxh

hiya john well shazs had agood birthday ? yes pissed she was ? kim start d on karls ?she was have ng a go at steven but karl stay d out of it she was nt happy so she start d on him i felt sorryt karl was find ng it hard with u not be ng there and she knew this so karl left wat a we bissim xxxxxh

morn ng john the sun shin ng ? fiona from the boat was talk ng ta me as she say to pope in at any time wen she is on and she will make me a coffee ? that snice of her ? she and simone has over d me a wee job clean ng ur boat 5 days a week i said yes xxxxxh

HELLO JOHNITS KARLS BIRTHDAY AS U KNOW ? HE DOES NOT WANT TO CELERBRATE IT AS UR NOT HERE WITH US TO GO AND HAVE AFEW PINTS WITH HIM WE ALL LOVE AND MISS U SO MUCH XXXH

hello john its sunday nite ? and i have got steven and mags & kyle and kelly? not happy kyle has put a we hole in ur chair ? i hope they r not gong to stay to long xxxxh

hello john i just had karl on the phone to me? i just could not stop cry ng i told him i do not have a penny ?steven and mags where ment to give me csh but they did not come up but karltold me mags was in i am going to get the keys bck they dont come and visit me any way when i am in so they dont need to come in wen i am out do they ?its karl s birthday on tuea day told him i cant get him any thing xxxxxxhelen

hello john another day is nearly over ? went ta my sisters after work ? steven said he would b up to nite with my csh ?i miss u xo much i hope u knew ihow much i miss u xxxh

hello john its not so nice today? my heart aches for u the loss i feel now u r gone its terrible ? the boys r doing there own thing /? but they promised to help me but thye have not ? all the grand children are get ng so big ? they talk bout u all the time zakie look s so sad has he i think misses u so much xxhelen

hello john its not very nice to day? its still mild but its been rain ng ? wat new there ?steven promised me cash tro day but no show noth ng new ther then i am sitt ng here with noth ng john never mind i just have to get on with it /i have had another cry ng day thats all i do theys day daeling ur where my rock u know ?i wish ucould show me sign that u r up there look ng down on me xxxx

hello john hope ur in no pain now? its me thats suffer ng now i cant cope with it all u know john its was a sad day wen u went out of my life for now ? 1 day i will b up there with u then i will b happy ? i am try ng very hard to cme to term with u gone ? i am so so unhappy with u leav ng me darling xxxxhelen

hi john its sunday morning ? i am not good i do not know what i am going ta do ?i have no cash the fridge is empty i cant even buy butter i cant ask anybody for help i have to pay rent and now council tax i wish u could tell me wat to do i was going to phone derek and ask him but i will not bother miss u so much darling i just want to b up there with u life must b better xxxh

hi john i am in on ma own and its so peace full for a change ? thank good ness? its been a lovely sunny day ? they r still at kim&karl xxh

hello john 2 months have passed now since you went away i know u r not in any pain ? the light went out my life u where my reason for live ng / my heart is so sad darling old jean has been in hospital its her heart but she s home now i will pope over ta c her shortly talk ta u later xxxxh

hi john well its friday nite 8 week s since u went and left me darling ? its been very tuff time for me ? not only that i have still got steven and mags& bairns with me but not 2 nite they r away ta kim& karls thank good ness for some peace and quite ? thats all i want i can tell u john ? i hope u knew how much i loved u and miss u so much xxhelen

hello john how r u to day darling? xxxxh

hello john u it will b 2 month s on saturday wen u went away and left me i know u where ready to go but i was not i wish u where here with me darling ? i am not cope ng to well i am going to get council ng i hope it will help ? karl saw derek in farm food s 1 day last week and he did not lookood infact he did not know who karl was ? karl went up ta speak ta him ? so he cant be handle ng u going away / but dereks deep like u miss u so so much love u xxxxhelen

hi john i have got the hoose ta ma self the night and i amso pleazed bout that ? steven mags& bairns r away along ta karls kim went ta farm foods and has not come back yet? no surprze there ? i am not get ng involved i am stay ng well out of it ? xxxhelen

hi john i thought i would come back on line to talk ta u darling it is all quite now the bairns are sleep ng thank god i cant be bother d with all that noise i can tell u that? how ru ihope ur enjoy ng the sun up there i wonder d if u caught up with ma dad u to will b have a good chat all bout scotland ? i am feel ng a we bit better this week ? the last 6 week have been very difficult for me ? i am going for council ng i doc walker think its a goood idear? i dont want to take tablets i do not want to go dwn that road ? i miss u so so much well i will talk to u to morro love u john xxxhelen

hello john its been a lovely day ? the sun s been shine ng all day ? i am not long back from work i am fed up with steven we have got mags and the bairns here its gt ng me down the noise it get ng me dwn i can tell u they 2 arguing i just wish they would all go away and leave me on my own so i can get some peace and quite i wish u where here this would not b happen ng will come bck on later to talk ta u xxxhelen

hello john i have had abad day ? there was trouble in ma hoose again karl went off on 1 went mad could not find his x box ? he was so angry and i got it karl turn d round and said he wish d or said the wrong person died it should have been me and not u ?so karl realy hurt me and kim said nasty thing to never mind john i told them both watch wat u wish for karl said the same to u and u died 2 week s later well john the kids where there zakie boy the girls and kyle iust want to b on ma own now xxxxxx talk to u the morn darling love u for ever helen xxxx

hi john its me darling just say ng nite nite miss u so much xxxhelen

hello john its 7 weeks now since you left me its been so hard for me i miss yo so so much but u r not in any more pain now darling xxxxx

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