hi john its been a bad day for me .... i just relized that u will never come back to me i misss u so much it hurt s so much .. well the live ng room been decorated i hope u like the colour s red/cream its lovely shazs had done agood job .... mags is fine she get ng big ...all the grand bairns r all well... i get zakie in 2/weeks i take 1 wee one every 2 /weeks ... i bet u will bhave ng a wee party for baby john he will be 2/3 i cnt remember ... i do a health lottery now with all ur number of this year and ur birthday number 5has came out three weks in arow .. just need the rest for a win but i am hope full ... xmas is loom ng but i nt look ng forward to it ....as ur not here ... but i am going to make the effort for the wee ones just like u did ... going to kim/karls on xmas day ... and steven and mags and there bairn s r cme ng dwn as well they said i have not to b on my own ... well darl ng i am away talk to u to/morro xxxxxx