hiya john hope u r well... well let me fill u in wat s been happen ng .. i put ma xmas tree up ta/day black and red .... it i think it looks good ... kyle stay ng over he says its koolhe help d me or try d ... he has been good for me he is on his own ... shazs is bro gets cremated on monday .. she in a terrible state ... lately she s been very nasty to/wards me but u i hope will know this .... i am not happy with her she really hurt me say ng i was not a good friend ta /her .. thats not true u know that .... i did tell her in a round bout way .. i am not put ng up with it any longer ... her sis vee is not like that she said to me not that we where talk ng bout her though .. she says she should not b like that and she is drink ng far to/ much .. i feel like tell her to piss off... but i am not like that ..as u know .. the boys r not happy with her but i have to b the 1/who tell shazs if she keep s treat ng me like shit... i love u and miss u so much .. i have been grieve ng for nearlly 7/ months and u do not c me b ng nasty to any /body ... karls has not been well he get ng better now.. steven s fine same old him with big chip on his shoulders ...all the wee /1 r have all been not well .....i am going ta/put the rest of the dec s up to / morro only put ng them up for them the kids... i wish it was all over ... it will not b the same with out/u ... but i have to try ..... i am just get ng on with thing s its been hard but i just keep bizzy .. i am still work ng so hard ..mags is get ng bigger every/ time i c her she just keeps eat ng lets hope all is well ...kim s been really nice to me i think they all relize how much i miss u ... they r all look ng sfter me ...talk to real soon xxx