hi john its so cold out the day.. i am not happy with shazs she has been drrink ng again and the tung start d being nasty to wards me ...her friend turn d round and said that sharon fed up with me that hurt and upset me ... well i say if she has smw thing to say .... she should do it wen sobber ... shazs did a good job in the sitt ng room the color great red/ccream u would love it darling ... sorry been so bizzy ...not been on for a while john i am just try ng to get on with things ... but it is so hard for me .... i love and miss u every miniute of each day .... ur always in my thought and in my heart .... its been 6 months sinced u had to go ... i was just sitt ng on the bed wen it it sunk in u will never b cme ng back again ...and i will c u till its my time to cme up there.....xmas is 5/week on sunday and i can tell u darl ng i am nt look ng forward to it ....i did think off not put ng a tree up but that is wrong ... i have to make the effort for the grand children ... u did so iam know differnt from u .... karl/kim fell out last week yes had him bck for 1/nite it was all over a puppy ... i wonder how long they will have this 1.. he is a cutie thou ....well its baby john 3/rd birthdat to/ morro but u will know this hope u r have ng a party for him... i will light a candle for him ...b/john will not b lonley now that he has his grand/dad up there look ng after him.... mag s is moan ng again i thought i would buy them a presssie ...but i got it wrong again cnt do any thing rite oh well ....zakie s cme ng to stay on saturday just him great just us 2... yeah ... i had 2/ number s on the health lottery but john i need 1/or 2/or them all love i will not b gready bab s i keep my fingers cross d well love i am awy talk to u soon on line love u so so much xxxxx