hi john its been a while and i am sorry for that .. u will know wat i meen i love and miss u every day ..but i am so lonley i cant tell just incase some /1 may read this .. its ur birthday to/morro i have gt balloons and a candle and a card but its nt brthday card its one i will tell its b/wishes its says silent tears i cry today try ng to pretend that every thing s okay . its ur birthday today and there noth ng i can do and noth ng i can say..no presents to surprise you. just memories of past gifts and birthdays the years through. i wish you where still here.but here sa card for you left with loving tears .remembering you with love happy birthday darling mags is get ng bigger she due on the 7/march steven is work ng now bout time they all have mived into new hzes all the grand children r fine zakie is a wee bit better i think i am work ng very hard missy is good she is company for me as u know nobody ever visit me shaz s is much the sane drink ng to much liam s back in the jail best place for him its going to b tuff for me ta/morro john i am listen ng to the radio guess wat came be ma baby i think that was u pope ng in bless u talk to u to nte at mid nite love u always helen