hiya john how r u darling ..u r never out my mind i love and miss u so so much that it hurt s ... let me tell u all wat has been going on ... well i now work in the boat clean ng i got the job .. i need the cash has my finances r teribble but u will know this... i thank u for this u got me this job i know this also .. zakie boy is miss ng u so much .. kim went ta read ng and said u came into it .. she also told me that u sit on zaks bed at nite and talk to him i do beleive u do .. he is hitt ng him self .. or if i tell himm off he think that me or any body for that we dont love him .. and he gets him self up set .. but i just give him a big cuddle and tell him that of courze i love him ... we talk bout u all the time ... and zakie boy cheers up then ... karl and kim r get ng on better and so r mags and steven also r gett ng on better to thank god but how long will it last i do not know .....dusty was 89 yesterday and he is well... ally on the other hand is not doing to good .. he is gett ng help for the drink ng ... well darl ng i will talk to u to morro love u for ever nite nite xxxhelen