hello john u it will b 2 month s on saturday wen u went away and left me i know u where ready to go but i was not i wish u where here with me darling ? i am not cope ng to well i am going to get council ng i hope it will help ? karl saw derek in farm food s 1 day last week and he did not lookood infact he did not know who karl was ? karl went up ta speak ta him ? so he cant be handle ng u going away / but dereks deep like u miss u so so much love u xxxxhelen