hi john i misss u so so much darling .... ma birthday was a sad day for me b cauze u r not here with me ... karl and kim r at it again .. kim has got karl where she want him .. i cant cope with it .... the boys say they will help me but thats not happen ng as u know ... they get more money than me ... i have not got a penny just bout out of power .. hardly any food .. not even got a biscuite nor choc ....then u have steven and mags have ng no food for the bairn s ..as it was ma fault ... karl bought me choc s no card s from his wee ones that is dwn to kim... any way she know how to hurt me she will ... she has been so so nasty to wards me ... i am on my own now in the houze and i am glad .... i am try ng so hard to come to term s with loss of u .. i have not stop cry ng for three month s i hope u know i will never take my wedding ring off .. i love u with all ma heart xxxxhelen