hiya john its friday nite now ? i have karl back i have only had 1 nite on ma own ..i need some time on my own .. shazs has had bad news her brother john as cancer but u know this its been abad year .... i miss u so much i have some real bads day s... i am not look ng for ward ta my birthday as ur not here with me .... i am just going ta work .. i wa sgoing ta stay off bujt with all that went on with all them but they have put me rite off i cant be bother d now ... it has been so hard try ng to get on with life wen u went my life end ed i cant cope xxxhelen